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Cathleen's avatar

Thank you for sharing! I feel this way quite often. I am always saying to my husband “I want to be a real boy”. Like in Pinocchio when he is tired of being made of wood? I miss my old self. 🤷‍♀️

Emma Stubbs's avatar

Absolutely! Thank you xx

Marian Vanek's avatar

My thoughts exactly! Thanks for stating it all so eloquently.

neena maiya's avatar

You KNOW we'd love to hear about the man you saw trying to walk a rabbit on a lead.🙂 But you don't have to tell us.

Faith for All's avatar

My housemates got tired in the first month after my diagnosis. "Hey guys, I learned today that..." [Eyes glaze over, then they start furtively look for a way to change the subject.] One friend told me I'm obsessed with this stuff, and in a way they are not wrong. But the sad reality is that, barring a miracle or a cure, I will be living and dealing with PD the rest of my life -- it IS my new reality. Every day is a different challenge, and I will never be the same guy I was 5 or 10 or 20 years ago. So, yeah, PD will inevitably be part of my writing and speech. But sometimes it helps a lot to focus on other things -- like the blossoms on my apple tree or the new music from our worship team, The Elim Arrival. (Not-so-subtle plug) Guess I better get back to work now.

Emma Stubbs's avatar

Absolutely xxx

Sarah's avatar

Dear Emma, thanks again for vocalising so eloquently what it's like to have IT!

I had a similar experience in the beginning; watching, reading, studying every last word on the damned disease. Nowadays I just read your blog. I'm glad l found you, we're not alone! Sending love ❤️

Melissa  Livingston's avatar

Unapologetically avoids internet

Emma Stubbs's avatar

hahah! best approach :)

Piet Lammert's avatar

Brilliant as usual Emma!

Nancy in Oregon's avatar

You're always there when I need you.

Heather Cawte's avatar

Oh so true!! I wanted to know *everything* about M.E. I wanted to know about any celebrity with it, like that would make it easier to put up with. I wanted to know all the statistics. And then one day - I just wanted to read about something else, to think about other things, to look out instead of in.

Maggie Hollingsworth's avatar

Brilliant piece Emma. Spot on!